I don't know why this story is on my mind today as I
finally get around to adding a new post to my dwindling blog. It occurred when I
was in my mid-teens, fourteen or fifteen years old; I can't recall
exactly.
My mother worked in one of the abundant at the time yarn
factories in this area. That factory now sits empty and idle. One of the truck
drivers for the company was a rough and tough fellow named Otis. He was a hard
drinking, hard living "sinner" (as we called anyone who was not of the faith,
but especially those who were particular vile). He was a huge man, not one to be
trifled with, very vulgar in his speech and crude in his behavior. He also liked
to good-naturedly "persecute" my mom for her old-fashioned and quite
conservative Christian ways.
Many were the times my I listened as Mom updated us about
Otis' latest antics. These stories were always quite entertaining to me, but
probably they were intended as cautionary tales as well.
One hot summer day Mom came into the house after driving
up after work and said to my stepfather and me: "You'll never guess what has
happened."
Now here is the weird part (one of those things I can't
explain but swear really happened), I blurted out without any aforethought
whatsoever, "Otis got saved" (which is how we typically referred to a religious
conversion into conservative Christianity).
My mom just looked at me all wide-eyed and asked how I
knew that.
As I said, I can't explain it. I have no idea why that
thought popped into my mind at that moment, when my mother could have been about
to relate seemingly anything. Otis getting religion certainly didn't seem a
very likely thing to happen.
My mom would have said God spoke to my heart and revealed
that to me. I would have said it, too, I suppose, because that was a part of our
religious tradition. I don't exactly know how to account for it today. There
have been many such notable examples of this kind of flash knowledge, especially
in my younger years. Indeed, the more I got into rationalism after I left the
faith, the less such things happened to me. And no wonder: it isn't rational
apart from a spiritual context.
This I can say, afterwards I met Otis when I visited the
church he had become a member of. Later I worked with him at the same factory
where my mom worked and got to know him personally. It can truly be said that
Otis was a changed man. "A new creature," as Christians would say. Gone was all
the crudeness and roughness, and in its place was a meek, gentle giant of a
man.
And his conversion lasted, too.
Otis found his peace.
Later I lost I mine.
To fall from God's Grace is a long fall indeed. I hope the peace you lost was rediscovered...differently as you discovered life without religious guidance.
ReplyDeleteI think that my youth and very young adulthood was an idyllic time for me. My religious faith was certainly a big part of that. I can't say I have had much real peace since.
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