I've been down lately. Way down. And for a while now.
My job has vexed me almost to nervous exhaustion. A position has been
forced upon me which I did not want. No one wanted it. It sucks. The previous
person who held it begged for weeks to be allowed to "step down." But I have the
reputation of being a fixer, of being a person who can take a tough situation
and work to improve it. Now it seems that against my wishes I am having that
opportunity again.
On my way home today I had to stop off at the local dollar store to get
some office supplies that I will need. After shopping for a bit, attending to my
list, I approached the checkout. Ahead of me was a gentlemen who looked my age
or perhaps a bit older. He didn't have a purchase but instead leaned in towards
the checkout girl and quietly asked for an application for a job. He was old
that they only accept applications online. I think that seems to be the general
rule now. (Never mind that many poor, hopeless people don't have easy internet
access.) That fellow probably last applied for a job (like me) back when it was
customary to appear at a personnel office and fill out a paper application and
then hope for an interview.
He asked for a name so he could put it on his internet application in order
to show that he did indeed talk to someone about a job. He was directed to the
store manager, who informed him that wouldn't be necessary, and, no, neither
would it be necessary to give that store number. Just go to so-and-so dot com
and fill in the blank for this city on the application.
By now I had checked out and exited the store right behind the man. His
disappointment was almost palpable. He walked, slump shouldered, to his beat up
old truck. And rarely in my life did I feel more like uttering a prayer: "Dear
God, please give this man some hope; please help him find a job that he seems so
obviously to want and need."
My second thought was that I need to be more thankful for the situation -
rough as it often is - that I have, the fact that I have a decent paying job to
go to that allows me to keep buying food (and even some extras to improve the
quality of my life), and to stay clothed and sheltered, and not the least of
my concerns, to be able to give my mom some assistance when needed.
Right now I have several temporary workers who are wanting desperately to
find permanent employment. And I don't know how many I will be able to keep once
the dust has settled a bit. Yet I look into their anxious faces every day
knowing I won't be able to keep everyone, that one day, more than likely, I'm
going to have to make some tough choices.
But I will still have a job. I have worked for the same place for twenty
years now. Even when it has been really rough, really patience trying, really
outright sucky, I still have been able to bring home a paycheck every week. I've
lived better these past twenty years than I have at any time in my life.
Today I saw the proverbial man who has no feet, and was reminded just
how fortunate I am. Time to quit grumbling, methinks.
Amazing how the cosmos provides reminders to us about our own situation, and the positives in our lives.
ReplyDelete@ Don,
ReplyDeleteTrue enough. I've always said that the only thing worse than a bad job is no job. It's all too human, I suppose, to lose our perspective from time to time.